I Wish I Knew

--- ### **I Wish I Knew** I no longer find comfort, not even a glob,Not even a piece of mind.This job has jabbed me down—In great disappointment, I grind my teeth.I wish I knew. I'm ditched—Left with pain and suffering.I get that panic,The panic of witnessing fading souls,The terror they leave behind.That agonizing rhythm of a failing heartbeat,That fraudulent moment of departing life.The trauma of gloving oozing blood.I wish I knew. Was I ignorant of career talks?Or selfish for the ‘good’ pay?Rather greedy to possess a ‘big’ title—DR?I'm mad at stabbing midnight calls—**"Doc... an emergency... casualty… come!"**I wish I knew. Lured by the slogan: *Saving lives,*I got baited into a trap,A trap that bore me regrets.I wish I knew. ---